I keep putting myself down in the titles (Day 5)

I keep telling myself what I'm saying doesn't count for one reason or another. I keep saying "I don't want to do this so it doesn't count." But I'm trying to remind myself that the objective is not something life changing and miraculous everyday. It is to say something nice about myself/compliment myself. One day, I am hoping it will be life changing, but for now, I'll settle for doing what I can.

I drove down I.U Willets today (I just started drivers education and haven't driven on main roads much), and I drove well.

It is something nice about myself. I drove well.

Again, I really don't feel like doing this today (Day 4)

Wow 4 days in and already struggling...I'm just mad at myself for shit. It sucks. I'm working on it. The only thing I can think of is that

I am mature

I'm sick of all of this high school bullshit. I'm sick of the fake people, I'm sick of the immaturity, I'm just sick of it. At the same time, i feel stupid being reduced to talking about those kids when i'm bored because life holds nothing else right now (well it holds plenty else but I don't think anyone other than my therapist appreciates me talking about that stuff.) I just want to be in college already.

I really don't feel like doing this today (Day 3)

Day 3 and I'm already running out of things to write. I considered posting "I'm a master procrastinator" but that probably doesn't qualify as a good thing about myself.

I am thoughtful

That was kind of a cop-out. I tend to over-think things, which gets me in trouble. So being thoughtful is both a good and bad thing.

I said I wouldn't qualify my statements...but I can't help it today.

Does it Count if Other People Help? (Day 2)

So today I had a "rock ceremony" where people go around and say nice things about me. It sounds less stupid in context, I swear. Anyways, I wrote those qualities down in my journal then realized I could use them for my daily practice. However, I then began to wonder if it counted as a part of my practice if someone else said the nice thing about me. I eventually decided that in this case, it does, because I believed them.

I am insightful

My rock. Live your life.

First Post!

I just got a really strange urge to sing "The Real Slim Shady" because it starts by rapping about comebacks. I guess this is my comeback. For my daily practice, I wanted something that would help me grow as both an artist and a person (though those lines are becoming blurrier everyday...but that's the subject for another post.) I came up with an idea that seemed so important that it scared me a bit. Which is why I knew I had to do it. Here's the email I sent to Luke:

Hi Luke,

Since I am trying to get back to STAC work, I was thinking about what I might want to do for my daily practice. I came up with an idea, but I don't know if it qualifies because it's not directly art related. What if I tried to write something nice about myself everyday? But I'd try and do it artistically (I'm not sure of what that means but I'll figure it out). Sorry if this is like out of the lines of STAC (I know this isn't therapy) but maybe I could incorporate aspects of STAC into it. I don't know.

-Nicole

Luckily, Luke liked the idea. So here I am. For those of you who know me well, you'll understand why I'm doing this. For those who don't I might just seem conceited. I promise you that is not the case.

So...I'm stalling because I haven't thought of something good for today. Great start right? Okay, I've got one.

I try my hardest to motivate my friends.

At this point I was really tempted to qualify this statement with something negative, but I will resist that urge.